• Day Five: A Pile of Rubble

    2nd Dec 2019 by

    Crash, bang, boom, pow….. I feel like I’ve gone one on one with Batman and lost. Typing is physically exhausting and it’s taking all of my concentration, of which I have little, to stay focused and on topic. I will try to post later and hope that my head has cleared enough to do so.… Read more

  • Day Four: Racing to Crash

    1st Dec 2019 by

    I never know how long the highs will last, an hour.. a day, week, months?? What I do know is that with next to no sleep at all, I start to decline in my ability to think and act after the 3rd day. I also know that I can only go 5 days without sleep… Read more

  • Day Three: As it goes so far…

    30th Nov 2019 by

    Still up there and no sign of slowing down. If it was going to hit me, the crash, it would have done so by now. Seems I might have a productive day. Some advanced warning would have been nice, I may have actually planned to do something and followed through with it for a change.… Read more

  • Day Three: Night and Day Roll in to One.

    29th Nov 2019 by

    One of the biggest issues I face on a regular basis is sleep. I either can’t get enough, as in.. fast asleep for 18hrs and still feeling like more is needed or it takes me 4hrs to fall asleep for 20mins and then I’m awake again or I don’t get any at all. It’s often… Read more

  • Day Two: Conclusions and a Retrospective Look at the Day.

    29th Nov 2019 by

    Far from a good start to the day which has resulted in a lonely Friday night deep in thought. I keep getting an old quote in my head, the one about futility being that of making a mistake and repeating it while expecting a different outcome. Yep, that sounds like me alright. Many things bug… Read more

  • Day Two: A Midday Installment.

    29th Nov 2019 by

    A day where a good relationship is strained and too lost in my own mind to see a positive solution. How does one stop themselves from self-sabotaging the good in their lives? Being aware of an issue doesn’t always provide answers.

  • Day Two: Another Day Begins.

    28th Nov 2019 by

    So, here I am once more. A usual hour for me to wake up, around 5am. I don’t know if it’s the world around me coming to life that disturbs me or my broken brain telling me that 4hrs is a sufficient amount of sleep. I still managed to smoke 4 cigarettes in that amount… Read more

  • Day One: The Introduction.

    28th Nov 2019 by

    Hi. My name is Chris but I’d rather be known here by my username; OnlyMyseliSomeDays. I live in Australia and I suffer from bipolar 1 disorder, OCD and I have been the victim of sexual assault and domestic violence. I’d like to share my story and my daily struggles and hear from those who are… Read more

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